my second serious thought.... relying on Him

This is one of the HARDEST things for any of us to do, Big or small . . . relying on God.

 Sometimes I really don't understand why God is doing what He is in my life,  and it makes me SO mad!  Plus, It doesn't even make sense to me.  This happens all the time and it frustrates me!  I just wanna take my teddy bear (His name is Mister Bear, Just so you know) and hit Him against the wall as HARD as I can.   It's like my life is going absolutely great then all of a sudden. . . (((WHAM!))) my life's down in a ditch again, and I'm trying to rustle myself out.      

 This is actually hard for me to write because I'm a very "I can do it by myself, thank you very much" kind of person... and I struggle relying when that part of me pops up in everyday business.

  No matter how far you fall and how hard you hit God is the one to rely on to get you out of your ditch.  "Look to the LORD and His strength; seek His face always." -1 Chronicles 16:11 (NIV)

. . .Maybe you are in your ditch to help someone get out that's been there WAY longer than you have - - We don't know, Only God does.

  I really just wanna get it out there,  that there is NO ONE better to rely on than God.  He put you there (or maybe you did... but still), He'll get you out.  I know it's hard and even scary to put your faith in something that can't talk, text or IM back...  Psalm 27:1 says "The Lord is my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear? The Lord is the stronghold of my life; of whom shall I be afraid?" 

 Lately, It's been very hard for me to do this. It's been hard not to do my "Okay God... I got it, I can do this. I don't need you!" But I know if I keep my eyes on Him and HIS glory. . .He'll get me out just fine!  and that's what I gotta keep telling myself. : )

Here's some more verses:

Psalm 46:1
God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble.

Isaiah 41:10
Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.

Jeremiah 17:5
This is what the LORD says: "Cursed is the one who trusts in man, who depends on flesh for his strength and whose heart turns away from the LORD.

This one's great to leave you with (;

Ephesians 6:10
Finally, be strong in the Lord and in the strength of his might.

my first story. . . . my hospital trip

Early Friday morning, I woke up around 1:30am not breathing... The only thought that came to my head was "This isn't working, this isn't working.. BREATHE!"   I took my inhaler then ran down stairs to my Mother who was soundly sleeping in her bed.  I went to the side of the bed and said "Mom....Mom....Mom....Mom" ...Didn't wake her up. So, I started to nudge her while saying "Mom....Mom...Mom...Mom.." (finally)  She flew out of the bed, Both arms AND legs in the air saying "WHAT?!? WHERE AM I? WHAT TIME IS IT? WHAT'S WRONG?!" (Please note by this point my Dad has joined her and I'm trying to hold in my giggles)
 Since going out in the cold (trying to get my throat to open) wasn't working Mom rushed me in the car and to the hospital.
  --If any of you are wondering how the new hospital is... It's very nice! Clean, Roomy...you can find a parking place! It's great ( : --
 
 Anway.. I got back to my room and had oxygen in my nose (which didn't even work because my nose was stuffy)  My Mom being who she is, was uploading pictures to FaceBook of me crying in the bed. haha! I love her.
 The respiratory therapist (The dude who gave me all my breathing treatments)  was very nice, He gave me 3 breathing treatments while in between having to listen to my lungs and having me do the peek flow meter.  My breathing was so bad they had me wait an hour to do another treatment that was an HOUR long! During my hour wait, I got chest xrays and an IV put in my hand (....twice....I'm not a fan of needles).
 Now me and mom are back in the room while I have this thing on my face that makes me look like an alien. By this point I have the giggles and can't contain sanity... Every time I'd laugh or move my heart rate meter would sound an alarm. hahah!  THAT got annoying pretty quick. Oh, and did I mention the lady in the room beside us was throwing up like no tomorrow? Yeah, I couldn't handle myself...
  Finally I was done and REALLY ready to get the IV outta my hand, Every time someone would walk by they were like "I can't hear you breathe!" 
So anyway, I got home went to sleep for about an hour... then ate tacobell. (:

 Don't ask me why I blogged about this... I just did.
It's really not even a blog, It's a story (Hence the title).

so, enjoy ^-^

my first serious thought... clouds

I know what you're thinking... clouds? really?   Yes, really.

Sometimes in life (being a teenager definitely) we like to look at the glass half empty, the bad side of things, like everything sucks, nothing's going right in life, you wish you could just go hide in your room and never come out, you just wish you could sleep forever... you feel like an ugly gray storm cloud. Sometimes we feel like this because of relationships, drama, our parents, school.. you name it, we'll find SOMETHING bad to make outta it! I'm very much guilty of this. Actually just this morning, I had a ugly cloud look at things with my  parents, totally not my best work... Felt like I never got to do anything I wanted to do (which was stupid sin working on me!) but then, as soon as I found out why.. it was a TOTALLY legit reason for not letting me do what I wanted. I felt totally stupid.
  This is what I'm talking about! The "aw! pitty pitty on me" crap, that everyone does is NOT attractive, at all! (like a storm cloud..see where I'm going?) I know kids that live off this feeling...not cool, not cool.

  Do you think when your peers look at you when your all "pity pity" they see the face of God? Do they see God living in you?  Do they see a beautiful, white, pure cloud?  Well guys, If you haven't noticed, God is the ONLY reason you're here. If He didn't want you here, believe me, you wouldn't be. He let's you breathe another day so you can live to tell others about Him and be His hands and feet. I know it's hard with all the peer pressure and sin in the world to be the beautiful white cloud God has made you to be, But you gotta try! I feel like some people just give up on God. News flash-- God never gave up on you... and still hasn't!
  To everyone reading this, I'm NOT saying I'm a beautiful white could.. I'm not saying I'm perfect..  I'm saying,  I'm trying. Do you know how much difference we could make in the world if we TRIED to read our Bible's every morning? We TRIED to talk about God with our friends? We tried to be more like Him?
How happy do you think God is when we're trying to live for Him! Trying to be as beautiful as we can for HIM!  Like I said.. I'm not perfect, But God knows I try everyday to live for Him.
  I'm gonna leave you with this thought...
Don't you think after ALL the stuff God has done for us.. don't you think we can do the same?
"I have set you an example that you should do as I have done for you." -John 13:15 (NIV)
I'm gonna try to be a white cloud... are you?